Sacrifice

I was recently listening to the Laura Ingraham show on a local talk radio station. I started listening not because I think she is an intelligent pundit, but rather out of sheer curiosity. What is the other side of the spectrum thinking?  I should have known better. After only five minutes I was fuming, beating my fists against the steering wheel and begging her to stop spreading fallacies as fact. She has a knack for laying out fallacious arguments as if they are common knowledge, misleading her supporters and offending people who are trained to think critically (not that the two are mutually exclusive...but...I'll let you decide).


On this particular occasion, she was discussing the idea of sacrifice.She began her argument by attacking the Obama administration for a number of things. For example, she criticized his efforts to create green jobs by saying he was "throwing money down a rat hole in Washington" trying to create these jobs that cost so much money and don't effectively impact unemployment. She may be right in saying that it is an ineffective way of battling joblessness, however, she spits it with such venom you would think that these "green job" also force people to torture small animals. Anyway, that's beside the point. In her discussion of sacrifice she chose three main examples to highlight her definition of sacrifice: 1) the sacrifice of Jesus Christ, 2) the sacrifices her mother made while raising herself and her siblings and 3) and the men and women fighting for our country in Iraq. Right away these appear to me as appeals to emotion. Not many would disagree with those examples of sacrifice, including myself. What is dangerous about the way she continued to present this discussion on is how she seamlessly made it appear that Obama would disagree with her, becuase his definition of sacrifice is one in which the "American people" have to give up their freedoms, their comfort and their income (i.e. higher taxes).


The issue at play here is the carelessness of the media. This woman is spreading her opinions about our president as if they are indisputable truths and she has an audience who does not question her motives. Why hate our president? What good does that do? Especially when he is just a player in a much bigger political scene and is essentially powerless when it comes to make real "change". Obama is just a dude. OR, more precisely, he is an inevitability. Someone had to take over after Bush was done pandering to the corporations and the rest of America's wealthiest 1% and if it hadn't been Obama it would have been some other poor schlub's head on the chopping block. I'm not saying I'm necessarily pleased with they way Obama has handled things thus far, but what I have realized over the past few years is that it's going to take more than just our president to bring real change to this nation.


I digress, because the topic of this blog is supposed to be sacrifice. So let's talk about it. I asked a handful of my friends to share with me their beliefs about the notion of sacrifice. I received some great feedback. One of my best friends wrote: "sacrifice is giving up something that costs you in order to obtain something beyond you or greater than you. There is no sacrifice without cost." Another friend shared with a quote from a popular book:


"Sacrfice," the captain said. "You made one. I made one. We all made them. But you were angry over yours. You kept thinking about what you lost. You didn't get it.Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire to." 
— Mitch Albom (The Five People You Meet in Heaven)


Others posted these comments on my FB wall:

• Sacrifice is putting others before yourself; enduring the hard times to accomplish what is best for others/everyone in the long-run/big picture.
• There's no greater sacrifice than to give your life for a friend :) ultimately it's preferring others above yourself
• Putting yourself on the line to help a greater cause even if you don't know the outcome
• Sacrifice means doing without. Sacrifice means having a goal and working toward it. It means putting others ahead of yourself. It is the willingness to do for others what they can not do for themselves
• Sacrifice is exemplified to me by our grandparents generation. It means doing what needs to be done for yourself or others and not complaining about how hard it is. When things become difficult you work as hard as you need to in order to come through it without bemoaning your station.

 I greatly appreciate my friends' comments. They show that the "American people" do understand the true meaning of sacrifice and that pundits like Ingraham are way off base when the assume we aren't willing to think about the meaning of words like that in a deep way. She may be able to spout rhetoric and parade her opinions in a way that make the sacrifice Obama is calling for look like the kind the ancient Mayan's asked of their people, but WE (the people) know better. The next time you hear that word I urge you to really think about what it means and then compare that to what is being asked of you. Are you being asked give your life, or merely your lifestyle? In light of these economic times it seems necessary for everyone to take a moment to consider the concept of sacrifce. What would you be willing to give up to really promote the greater good? Would you stop shopping at Wal Mart so that poor families could have reliable transportation? Would you give up your second car so that millions of species could survive? These are the realities of our life style. We take and take and take and take and hardly ever stop to think about giving back. REALLY giving back. We don't want to be inconvenienced. We want things done FOR us and we sit back and criticize those who try to make things right.


Don't just sit on the sidelines and throw rocks at the people trying to make change.


Go out and be the change you want to see in the world. You might be happily surprised with the results.


~~~Be excellent to each other.~~~

Who are the Terrorists?

Our current War on Terror is one of many wars the United States is currently waging against a faceless opponent. We have our War on Drugs, the War on Poverty, etc. What makes the War on Terror so disconcerting is that in actually fighting with a faceless enemy there are two important consequences: 1) it will be impossible to tell when the war is over/won, and 2) terrorists can be anybody, e.g. a group of religious zealots, a political party, a nation or even an American citizen. I will not bother discussing consequence #1 because I do not believe this war is being conducted to be won. Indeed if it had it would not have been called the War on Terror. Our leaders knew exactly what calling it a War on Terror would mean in terms of hope for a real victory. The fight against terrorism should be left to a competent justice system, i.e. a World Police. America has no right to proclaim itself as such.

No, I'd rather discuss consequence #2. This it seems is a much more dangerous consequence in that it allows the powers that be (i.e. the ones with the most money and best weapons) to decide who qualifies as a "terrorist". It was easily agreed upon immediately after 9/11 that what happened at the Word Trade Center and the Pentagon were acts of terrorism. So many of us, both within the US and abroad, were so shocked and emotionally tied to this event that there was really no other way to look at it. We felt attacked and other nations felt that if we could be attacked so could they. It was the perfect situation to declare unending war on an ambiguous enemy.

It is easy to portray an individual like Osama Bin Laden as a terrorist. He clearly used terror, i.e. violent tactics that aroused terror in his enemies, to promote his cause. The entire al Qaeda network is a pretty good target for the label "terrorists". What I see happening now is similar to what happened during the Red Scare, the term "terrorism" or the label "terrorist" is being tossed around by the media and private individuals carelessly and thoughtlessly. If you think I'm wrong please offer me a counter point. Make an argument that reveals the fundamental difference between McCarthyism and our ever-increasing need to label opposing forces as "terrorists". I argue that there isn't one. At this point in history just about every "civilized" nation has funded, supported or carried out some sort of terrorist act and the United States is definitely no exception. The next time you shake your head in sorrow or in anger after watching mainstream media coverage of the latest terrorist act take a moment to reflect on what was presented to you. Who were they after? Why did they do it? What point were they trying to prove? No group, not even al Qaeda, has only terror as its main objective. My belief is that terrorism is simply the use of terror (i.e. inflicting fear of death, pain and/or suffering) on a group of people in order to control, manipulate or change the way they behave. There is nothing humanitarian about going to war on terror. It is fighting fire with fire, which in my experience only produces a much larger fire. I'm not saying that America should never go to war and that all war is bad. War is often necessary. Defeating Nazi Germany, for example, was necessary. They had to be stopped because they were beyond the point of reason. That is what I argue is absent among our world leaders: reason, pure and simple.

Let's take a look at an example of a current situation in which a reasonable outcome is unlikely to occur. My husband posted an article on his Facebook page today about some recent developments in the Freedom Flotilla 2 saga. For those of you who don't know anything about the Freedom Flotilla 2, or didn't realize there was a Freedom Flotilla 1, I'll do my best to give you a brief run down. Since June of 2007 there has been an Israeli blockade of the Gaza Strip. The UN declared the blockade illegal according to the Geneva Conventions. The International Committee of the Red Cross has also expressed public concern over the blockade. Israel's excuse is that the blockade must continue in order to reduce the threat of Palestinian rocket attacks and other acts of terrorism on their people. Meanwhile, thousands of civilians are dying of starvation in Gaza. The first Freedom Flotilla was formed by an Irish couple after an American woman, Rachel Corrie, was crushed by an Israeli Defense Forces (IDF) bulldozer while acting as a human shield to prevent the demolition of Palestinian homes. A flotilla of cargo and passenger ships manned by citizens from several nations, including the US, was formed with the intent to break the siege of Gaza. The flotilla was stopped by Israeli forces and several of the activists were killed and/or brutalized in the process. Now a second flotilla has been formed and has made its intentions of non-violent humanitarian aid clear to the public. Israel is preparing to stop the flotilla with more force than was used against the first one. What is our government's response to this Israeli threat to the peaceful endeavors of the flotilla? Well here is one example, this is the article Erich posted today: US Senator Wants US-Isreali Op Against Flotilla

After you read the article consider these additional points of interest to the matter:

1) Read the statement to the UN Human Rights Council given by the Freedom Flotilla Coalition: statement to UN Human Rights Council

2) Watch the statement given by Hillary Clinton after the murders aboard the Freedom Flotilla 1. In this statement she says, "The situation in Gaza is unsustainable and unacceptable . Israel's legitimate security needs must be met as well as the Palestinian's legitimate needs for sustained humanitarian assistance and regular access for reconstruction materials must also be assured." (for the video clip click this link). The Freedom Flotilla is such an effort of humanitarian assistance, however, in a more recent publication this was said:
 Hilary Clinton, a staunch supporter of the Tel Aviv regime, was quoted as saying “ We do not believe that the flotilla is a necessary or useful effort to try to assist the people of Gaza,”.“And we think that it’s not helpful for there to be flotillas that try to provoke actions by entering into Israeli waters and creating a situation in which the Israeli’s have the right to defend themselves,” she added. (link to article)

Consider what she’s saying and research the truth behind it. Is the flotilla trying to provoke Israel? What earnest efforts has Israel made to allow for humanitarian aid in Gaza since the last flotilla?

3) Finally, think about what the George W. Bush administration declared as one of their objectives in the War on Terror. Below are the objectives in question and I’ve highlighted the points I think are relevant. Whose interests are being served if we openly allow Israel to kill citizens who are conducting peaceful acts in international waters?

Defend US citizens and interests at home and abroad
1.    Implement the National Strategy for Homeland Security
2.    Attain domain awareness
3.    Enhance measures to ensure the integrity, reliability, and availability of critical physical and   information-based infrastructures at home and abroad
4.    Integrate measures to protect US citizens abroad
5.    Ensure an integrated incident management capability


How does your definition of terrorism fit into this issue? Are the people aboard the Audacity of Hope the problem? The Israeli blockade could be considered acts of terrorism, especially if you are a Palestinian. Why are we (as a nation) on Israel’s side? Why does our government not consider this an issue in which they should "integrate measures to protect US citizens abroad" ? Is what's being done in Gaza at the hands of one of our "allies" not in our interests? As a citizen of the US who do you support? Do you feel your interests are represented by the words of Hilary Clinton? If so, can you support them with fairness and reason?

The ultimate point I'd like to make is that in the Freedom Flotilla 2, and aboard the ship named the Audacity of Hope, we have American citizens who are making a statement about humanity. They may in fact be provoking Israel, but why shouldn't a country which is actively committing atrocities be provoked? Is a history of governmental agreements behind closed doors enough to let these acts not be considered terrorism? Is starving civilians really the way we want to encourage our friends to ensure their own national security? Why would it be so terrible for the US to support the efforts of the Flotilla? If your response to any of these questions focuses on economics and politics more than it does on basic human decency and what is truly good for humanity then maybe you have some more thinking to do, because I won't be convinced.

As always, be excellent to each other.

The Economic Bill of Rights, Why Not?

Before I investigate the question that is the title of this blog I would like to set the stage properly. This weekend my husband and I experienced a noticeable shift in our psyches. The kind of shift that moves you to become a different person overnight. I could call it an epiphany, but it's more than that. I not only came to a few new realizations about my role in this world, but I also acted upon those realizations. This blog is one of those actions so I want to set it up properly.

I recently realized why I have not been motivated to keep up with entries in my blog. Unlike my closest friends who use their blogs to showcase their travels and their wonderful talents as bakers, seamstresses, scrapbookers and overall artists I do not possess any of these blog-worthy qualities. When I first began the blog I imagined it would be my online diary that I shared with others. That seemed like a good idea, but in reality it felt forced. Why should anyone care what I have to say and what I'm thinking? What good does it do anyone to read my thoughts, feelings, reactions, etc? My friends and family take interest because they care about me and are wonderfully supportive of my every thing I do, but my hope is that with their help I can write about topics with real substance and potentially impact people outside my immediate circle of friends. I stick by my initial claims that I do not have all the answers. I know this to be true and I don't want anyone to get the impression that I'm pushing my beliefs on others. The situation is quite the opposite. I am in fact aiming to help others formulate their own beliefs and opinions, not by blindly listening to any of the mainstream media moguls that currently hold our social consciousness hostage, but by actively listening to others and researching on their own. I aim to do that in the simplest way I could come up with, and perhaps the most classic: through questioning and debate.

I renamed my blog today in the attempt to capture my shift in consciousness. Socrates is to this day an infamous philosophical personality. For those of you who do not know much about him take a day or two to read the book Socrates by Anthony Gottlieb. It is from a series of books entitled The Great Philosophers, and Gottlieb's brief account of Socrates is thorough and easy to read. From there I have no doubt that you will want to actually read Plato's dialogues, in which Socrates is the main character and his methods are laid out more thoroughly. I read it yesterday to brush up on my knowledge of Socrates after watching the Michael Moore film Capitalism: A Love Story. What could Michael Moore and Socrates possibly have in common? That's a great question, and three days ago I would have said absolutely nothing, but that was because I'd never bothered to ever actually watch a Michael Moore film. His reputation as an extremist, left-wing asshole and warnings that his films focused on over-the-top conspiracy theories and right-wing bashing kept me away for a very long time (I tend to avoid the extremes, on BOTH ends of the spectrum). It wasn't until my husband, Erich, and I were once again talking about the need for real change in this country that we decided to finally give him a shot. Within the first 10 minutes of the movie we had paused to consider and discuss the points presented to us for about 30 minutes. This trend continued throughout the entirety of the film. Watch, stop, discuss, repeat...Until the movie was over and we felt as if we were being called into action.

Moore didn't shove anything down my throat, he simply had made a movie that came to the same conclusions I had already come to on my own. He did help me de-mystify some of the more complex aspects of American economics and politics. I can say that thanks to his movie I now actually understand what the 2008 housing collapse and subsequent bank bailout actually meant for our country. Whether Moore is right about everything he presents in his films is beside the point for me and Erich. What he got us to do is THINK. He woke me up in much the same way Socrates woke up the citizens of Athens. What makes his documentaries so important is that he takes the time to really talk to people, to ask them what they think is happening and what they think ought to be happening. This is why I am comparing him to a modern day Socrates and this is why I think his message is so important. The people need to reclaim their thoughts and their voting power. How many of us admittedly waste our votes? How many of us feel impotent in matters of government? THIS IS NOT HOW IT SHOULD BE. Our country was designed to give us all a voice. If we don't like what our representatives are doing then we need to get them the hell out of there and replace them with people who truly have our interests at heart.

So what would Socrates do? I phrase the question this way because he stood up for virtue when no one else would. He urged people to take a moment now and then to consider the things that truly matter. He did not begrudge anyone their material comforts or their wealthy lifestyles, in much the same way that I do not condemn my fellow Americans for taking pleasure in their leisure time or watching Jersey Shore. This is America, land of the free. If you want to watch shitty television, buy things you can't afford and eat way too much food then so be it! BUT...there is a danger lurking in the kind of indulgence we glorify on television, the kind of danger that doesn't fully present itself until it's too late. In our constant quest for material possessions, power and money we have allowed greed and selfishness to become the norm. We have allowed the misguided belief that the poor are poor because they are lazy and the rich are rich because they work hard to become a driving factor in our decision making as a society.

I am going to stop there for now and leave you with something to consider. Below is a link to a video of President FDR. In it he proposes a second bill of rights that he calls the Worker's Bill of Rights or the Economic Bill of Rights. Up until Moore's documentary this piece of history was conveniently kept from my view. No school teacher ever even mentioned it. I never even came across it in my studies as a college student. I am curious as to know how many Americans are aware that a piece of legislation such as this  ever existed. If you knew of it before now please comment and explain when and where you heard of it. Likewise, if you are as outraged as I was that you have never heard of it until now please comment as well.

 As you watch this video try to imagine an America where these laws are passed. Think about the positive consequences of such legislation. Give me feedback. What are the pros and cons of trying to bring this document back into the limelight? I'm reaching out because I am unhappy. I'm unhappy with how we treat each other, with how our country is viewed by the world, and with our value system that is no longer focused on virtues but on money and power. But mostly I'm reaching out because I can't change things by myself. I need your help. Together we can do better!

Who knew teaching and alcoholism were so closely related?

To put it bluntly, anyone who's ever done Teach For America knows this little fact. I wouldn't limit this discovery to TFA teachers exclusively, I know for a fact that there are plenty of non-TFA educators who have been driven to one sort of bottle or another (just ask the 1st grade teachers at my school...they can all drink an LSU lineman under the table). The real question here is why? It's not necessarily the kids, though at times it feels like it. On any given day any kid can drive you to a point of frustration you never felt was possible, but at the same time they are truly the reason we keep coming back every day. In a way teaching is like drinking. If you drink the right amount you get a good buzz going and you feel like you're on top of the world...but drink too much and, well you can finish that thought for me I'm sure.

I have my own theories about why TFAers are driven to drink. We overindulge at school. We bring it home with us, take it to bed with us (how many of us have yelled "ACTIVE LISTENING POSITION" in our sleep? I know I have...) and rarely allow ourselves a guilt free weekend of relaxation. This is where the alcohol comes in. It is so amazing what a couple glasses of wine can do at the end of another shitty Tuesday full of more paperwork than a human deserves and the knowledge that there are still 3 more days until the weekend. I live for Fridays, and try to drink enough on Saturday so that I have an excuse to sleep in on Sunday when I know I should be working on lesson plans. My only real goal these days is to somehow avoid totally destroying my liver before my 2 years is up.

So maybe I'm being a little melodramatic...it's not THAT bad, but there are some days (and weeks) that really weigh me down. I think it comes from the fact that no matter how hard I work I can never quite get it right. My kids are truly challenging and I frankly still don't know quite what I'm doing. TFA did an OK job at Institute getting me ready for life in a regular classroom...but I teach special ed which is, by definition, NOT regular. I feel like I was trained to fly a jet and was put into a helicopter and told "Ok! Use your training and fly!" I'm lucky though, my school has a supportive staff and administration. At times they are almost too supportive. I'm constantly being told how "wonderful" and "amazing" I am and how "I'm doing so much with those kids" which only makes me feel guilty because I know better. It also makes me sad for my students, because I know I'm not giving them all what they need, so what were they getting before?!

I just realized it's the first Saturday of my first ever Thanksgiving week OFF and I'm sitting at my computer blogging about my recent drinking problem...funny thing is, I'm not even drinking! You'd think that as soon as school let out yesterday I'd be out partying, but quite the opposite occurred. I think I went to bed at 10pm last night. Maybe instead of drinking I should sleep more....nah. I'm gonna go get a beer.

Remember, be excellent to each other.

Adios.

All can really mean "ALL"

I read an interesting blurb in a fellow Teach For America corps member's blog. She mentioned that she had read something about how "all" often refers to different groups throughout history and rarely does it ever really mean "all." Sometimes it refers to white men or white men who also own property. Women and minorities fit into there sometimes as well, but rarely. If you think about the statement "all people are created equal"you can't deny we've taken a few liberties with the meaning of some key words...

It's funny how we take language for granted. Think about it. How often do you say always, never or everyone? Do you ever really mean it? Is everyone really out to get you? Does your roommate really never do the dishes? Probably not. We just say this stuff. It comes out of our mouth like verbal diarrhea and we never stop to give a thought as to how it might affect the way we think. How can it not? If you repeatedly complain about how you can "never catch a break" are you going to be an optimist? Not likely. What if you tell people your best friend "always embellishes" are you going to believe her when she doesn't. Now I'm not saying to stop using these words, I'm just asking if you ever stop and think about them. Do you? I know I don't, at least not often enough. I think as a married person I need to watch myself more closely than ever before. Off the top of my head I can think of some things I have accused Erich of "always" doing, even though it simply is not the case. Always insinuates that something occurs 100% of the time. I know for a fact that Erich does not leave the bathroom faucet dripping 100% of the time, and yet I still say "You always do that!" in that accusatory, annoyed voice of mine. Not cool.

Ultimately, what I'm getting at is that the words you choose to use are important. I'm teaching in a self contained classroom now. I've got kids who have cognitive disabilities of all kinds. There are lots of verbal adjustments to make in this kind of career. For one, we try not to refer to the child as his or her disability. For example, to say a child is autistic is inappropriate. Instead we say a child with autism. That child is not defined by his or her exceptionality, just as you are not defined by your gender, age, race or sexual preference. I obviously try to abstain from using the word "retard" as a slang term (though sadly that's a hard habit to break), and I'm trying daily to use more positive language when describing my kids' challenges. Even words like "all" must be considered heavily when dealing with children with needs as great as mine. They are remarkable little people, yet so many people in their lives do not see their strengths. My school is well run and full of great teachers and administrators, yet these kids are still not treated the same as "all" the other kids. They are the outliers. Even within the classroom we have one child who is not always included when I say "all" of us. That's going to stop next week. I officially start teaching them on Friday, and starting Monday we're taking off at a high pace to try and catch these kids up with their peers. I'm not sure I have the stuff it takes to really get them there, but I do know this: I will include ALL of them in ALL of our activities and I will do my best to help ALL of them.

I encourage anyone reading this to think about a word that may be keeping you from being the person you want to be and consider changing how you use it or view it. It feels good.

Be excellent to each other.

"There's nothin' like a bald pussy"

It's been more than a week since my first post. To be honest with you I've tried to write a new post at least 3 or 4 times now, but each time I psyche myself out. Why? Well, the feedback I received from my first post had me a little nervous that I couldn't meet everyone's expectations a second time! I was so excited and surprised by all of your wonderful comments. Thank you especially to Jill and Perry who even mentioned me in their own blogs. It just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. That being said, I decided it's time to give it another shot. It's not going to be anywhere as intellectual as the first (if you couldn't guess by the title), but I'm hoping we'll all get at least something out of it. Here goes...

So let's get to the topic you're all waiting for, the title of this post. First of all, get your minds of of the gutters, I'm talking about hairless cats (now who's the pervert? hmm?). Why am I talking about bald cats? Well, because that's just the sort of absurd creature that I can use to sum up these past couple weeks of my life.

Lets start with sheer aesthetics. Those cats are just plain ugly, and so too have these last couple of weeks. Imagine this scene: a grown woman wakes up around 10:30 each morning, shuffles into the kitchen for coffee and whatever food scraps are chillin in the fridge, she eats while she surfs the web and then sits down to play some Playstation 1 without even bothering to brush or get dressed. This continues until a shower is a necessity. Pretty ugly indeed.

Back to the cats. I think we can all agree that they are not aesthetically pleasing to look at, but what about their purpose? As far as I'm concerned cats (at least in terms of being our pets) are meant to be around for our pleasure. What's better then petting and snuggling a sweet little kitty? Nothing, unless that cat is a disgusting, fur-less rat! Sorry, but who wants to snuggle with a bald animal? They are not cute and soft and cuddly, i.e. they do not have what is necessary and sufficient to be a pet cat, ergo they are not good pets. So to own a hairless pet cat is pointless. This brings me back to my last two weeks: utterly pointless. I came to Baton Rouge for a reason. I didn't say to myself, "gee I'd love to uproot my life and just go live in Baton Rouge and play video games all day." I am here because I wanted to help close the achievement gap and becoming a highly effective teacher. Yet, here I am, 5 weeks into school, no classroom, no kids, no job. Not really the best way to make a difference in education, wouldn't ya say? So, just like owning a hairless cat, an idealistic new teacher without a classroom is pointless.

Is there anything positive I can say about these animals/past two weeks? Yes. And it can be summed up by one word: Humor. I believe those cats exist so that I can laugh at their expense. They have also helped inspire me to write again, which for all intents and purposes is probably very therapeutic for me at this point. I should really give credit to a certain woman for inspiring me to finally write again; this same woman is the one to thank for my lovely title. She is a SPED teacher here in Louisiana, she teaches middle school self contained out in the boonies. She kindly took the time to show me the ropes of SPED paperwork and teaching children with special needs last Friday. I observed her classroom for almost the entire day and I left with two revelations: 1) you cannot teach these children unless you build truly strong relationships with them, 2) you must have a good sense of humor about everything. In her own wonderfully obnoxious sort of way this teacher (whom I will refer to as The Dupe from here on out) embodied these two facets of teaching to the core. Before I left for the day The Dupe showed me pictures of her and the kids. She takes them places on the weekends, has sleepovers at her home and takes them grocery shopping during the week to help build their life skills. Pretty awesome. But as we were scrolling through these pictures we came across her other "babies" - you guessed it, hairless cats. She raises them. In an instant she realized I was not a fan of hairless cats (it was probably poorly veiled look of disgust on my face) so she leaned over and said to me, "let me tell you something important: there's nothin like a bald pussy." And so there ya have it, wisdom from a veteran teacher. Not the sort of direct knowledge I was expecting to be given when I entered her classroom, and yet it was worth so much more than any of the tangible resources she did give me.

So where am I now? I no longer get up at 10:30 and feel sorry for myself all day. I recently got hired for a new teaching job and will begin sometime next week. But from here on I am going to take what I learned from The Dupe and her bald pussies and apply it as often as I can. It is this message that not only lightened my disdain for hairless cats, but also helped me regain some confidence about my choice to move here. She reminded me not to take things so seriously. Lighten up. Don't spend so much time focusing on a thing's faults, see the value in it. Even hairless cats have something to offer (i.e. a great opportunity for inappropriate innuendo)! But seriously folks, why don't we all just lighten up and try to have fun with things more often? Why do we stress so long and hard over shit that really doesn't matter. Try looking at your situation and seeing the absurd rather than the serious. If you can manage to do that, you'll live a lot longer and you'll laugh a lot more!

Life is full of moments and events we cannot control, but are we or are we not conscious, thoughtful beings? Isn't it within our power to react in any way we please? Think of all those times you were able to laugh at something later that at the time seemed like the end of the world. Who hasn't said at least once in her life, "you know, when I look back on it, it was actually pretty funny" ? My goal before my next post is to enjoy the humor in a situation in that moment. Why should I wait for later to see the humor in it? Why go through the stress of dealing with it seriously at the time when ultimately I'm going to use it as a funny dinner story later on? We are such funny creatures. We create so many of our own problems with our pig headedness and our unwillingness to look silly or profane. We create social rules that make us uncomfortable and awkward and stressed and forget that they are social constructions built and maintained by us!

I bet those hairless cats get a good laugh out of watching people.


Remember,

"Be excellent to each other"

Matters of Nothing

You might believe based on the name of my blog that I'm going to be some whiny, emo kid who bitches about life and how everything we do and believe is shit because none of it really, truly matters in the bigger picture. Well if you began reading despite thinking that you are going to be thoroughly disappointed. I graduated with a double major in philosophy and psychology and if there is nothing else that I learned while obtaining my degree it is this: there is always more than one way of looking at things.

For example, what would you say if I asked you what the phrase"nothing matters" means? You might be thinking to yourself "well that's easy it means NOTHING matters." Then you might go off on some existentialist tirade about how God and religion isn't real and we are all hopeless. If that's what you were thinking don't worry, you are not wrong, but what if I told you there are two other ways of looking at this phrase? Now the gears in your head are really turning.

Perhaps you came up with this as another option: Nothing MATTERS. In other words, Nothing is important. That's right, I said it. Perhaps nothing really does matter. Heidegger enthusiasts and eastern philosophy fans may know what I'm talking about. Nothing, in a very abstract sense, perhaps more clearly referred to as THE Nothing, matters. The Nothing is important. In fact, for some it is the most important element of Being, because recognizing the Nothing opens up all of ones possibilities and therefore helps one lead a more authentic life. That seems pretty important doesn't it? If you answered the question above this way then you have obviously done some extremely difficult, but mind blowing reading (e.g. Being and Time by Heidegger or the Tao te Ching).

Finally, a third option (and the one I will most likely be focusing on throughout my entire blog) is this: simply nothing matters, i.e. matters of nothing. What are most blogs anyway? They are the forum in which people share their thoughts and insights about life. When you boil it down to its very essence it is an ongoing discussion a person has with herself about matters (i.e. a situation, state, affair, or business) of nothing (i.e. nothing in particular, just everyday type stuff). So here we have the theme of my blog. I will not claim to have important insights into life, nor the answers to the questions we all have. I am simply a person who wants to say something about the daily nothings that occur so that I feel less alone and perhaps get a few laughs out of it.

My husband has a blog. It is very clever and in it I get the feeling he thinks he knows things others do not (or perhaps don't realize they know it). I think perhaps he does. He definitely knows more about the world/understands things better than I do. He writes with real wit and candor about his daily discoveries and I find it very entertaining (as do many of our friends and essentially anyone who knows him), but it is also educational. It is meant to get people thinking, or even at times to get them riled. He, like myself, is bothered by most peoples' general lack of awareness. Awareness of what? That's a good question and I think that's why he started blogging. Just general awareness seems to be missing in our country, perhaps our world, and it bugs him. He writes to potentially help others feel the discomfort he feels and in doing so maybe change the way things are. It is a noble goal, one I'm not even sure he would admit to, but as I talk to him and read his rants I get the feeling he is on some sort of mission.

My blog is going to be different. I, like my husband, am aware of lack of general awareness around me, however, I am also acutely aware of my own ignorance. There are many things (especially of a social and/or political nature) that if discussed in my presence cause me intense emotional feelings and discomfort. What bothers me most is not that my opinions are not heard or taken into consideration, but that I have such strong opinions about things I really don't know that much about. I fully anticipate sharing those very same opinions on this blog, but I hope that in the process I will discover why it is I feel entitled to those opinions. I want to embrace my ignorance more fully and learn to fill in my knowledge gaps rationally, rather than close myself to educational opportunities because of my emotions. Ultimately, this blog is about acquiring wisdom. It is not the only forum I am using to seek wisdom, however I think it will play an important role in the quest.

So why call it nothing matters? Like I said in the beginning, there are always more than one way of seeing things. This phrase always reminds me of that fact. Having this title will also allow me the flexibility of rambling about nothing in particular (i.e. the third definition listed above: matters of nothing). There is a lot of freedom to choose from a wide array of topics when you promise to write about nothing. That being said I hope that those of you who end up reading this enjoy what you read, but more importantly I hope it helps you keep an open mind. After all, it's so difficult to really, truly keep an open mind these days, why do you think I'm trying so hard right now? If nothing else I hope that at least one person who reads this will look at something he has taken for granted in a new way. If this occurs I will consider this a successful blog.

With that in mind, good luck to both of us and thanks for reading!

In the words of Bill and Ted,

"Be excellent to each other."